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Anyone else a tad bit irritable?
Well, on the financial homefront, my balances are slowly going down, and I will have paid off a major loan by the end of this year, and my semi-old car will be paid off by later next year.
My debt for the month slightly increased, as I had to borrow money from a friend to pay my taxes (sigh, haven't had to pay taxes in so many years---but with 2 jobs, didn't have enough state taxes withheld. Doh!).
Sticking to the $100 a month for food has not been working so well....i have been shopping at the very cheap markets (the kind where I won't buy meat from them because there are rumors that the meat is expired meat from other, regular or higher priced supermarkets), and bringing my breakfast and lunch to work every day. And yet, I still ended up overspending and am kicking myself in the rear for it. Primarily overspent on things like the random bag of chips, coffee from cafes (but only one the weekends--I drink the super cheap stuff monday thru friday) and pretty much just food stuffs. Sigh. And right now I am still counting out the amount of food I have until payday.
So yeah, I am a bit irritable right now and miffed at myself.
I have been aware that for me, shopping is very emotional. Primarily because of the whole poverty thing when I was younger. I would save my money for dinner (we didn't have a kitchen---looooong story there), and go and buy like a .75 cent hotlink, and a .50 bread roll, and make a sandwich, in order to circumvent the $2 dollar plus hotlink sandwich with veggies served at a local deli. I became the master of the $3.50 rice plate, and a treat for me, would be the $1.07 taco bell nachos for lunch in high school.
I didn't really do any excessive spending this month except for food. My unexpected expenses were an additional $30 bucks for toll!! Sigh. Extra cat food, etc. My frivalous buys were household stuff like a plastic container for food and some tongs. Yeah, not big ticket items by any means.
I found myself kind of lost at what to do over the weekend because, well, I had a specific amount of money for very specific food items and that was it. My desire to window shop (I can window shop and not buy anything) seemed pointless due to the amount of gas it would use.
So, all in all, I am feeling a bit irritable because of the money situation. I could get a 2nd job (which looks really, really difficult right now in my area), but am worried about the who overworked and tired aspect as I need to really focus more on my health----my body doesn't recharge as much as it used to when I was younger and worked 2 jobs. And yet part of me wants to be able to rest on the weekend.
Anyone else find themselves irritable when their money is tight?
And despite my irritability, I am soooo aware of how blessed I am, and how I just need to hunker down and stick to doing the right thing. I have it good, and eating beans and rice for a week is a luxury for a lot of people, and I shouldn't complain.
My debt for the month slightly increased, as I had to borrow money from a friend to pay my taxes (sigh, haven't had to pay taxes in so many years---but with 2 jobs, didn't have enough state taxes withheld. Doh!).
Sticking to the $100 a month for food has not been working so well....i have been shopping at the very cheap markets (the kind where I won't buy meat from them because there are rumors that the meat is expired meat from other, regular or higher priced supermarkets), and bringing my breakfast and lunch to work every day. And yet, I still ended up overspending and am kicking myself in the rear for it. Primarily overspent on things like the random bag of chips, coffee from cafes (but only one the weekends--I drink the super cheap stuff monday thru friday) and pretty much just food stuffs. Sigh. And right now I am still counting out the amount of food I have until payday.
So yeah, I am a bit irritable right now and miffed at myself.
I have been aware that for me, shopping is very emotional. Primarily because of the whole poverty thing when I was younger. I would save my money for dinner (we didn't have a kitchen---looooong story there), and go and buy like a .75 cent hotlink, and a .50 bread roll, and make a sandwich, in order to circumvent the $2 dollar plus hotlink sandwich with veggies served at a local deli. I became the master of the $3.50 rice plate, and a treat for me, would be the $1.07 taco bell nachos for lunch in high school.
I didn't really do any excessive spending this month except for food. My unexpected expenses were an additional $30 bucks for toll!! Sigh. Extra cat food, etc. My frivalous buys were household stuff like a plastic container for food and some tongs. Yeah, not big ticket items by any means.
I found myself kind of lost at what to do over the weekend because, well, I had a specific amount of money for very specific food items and that was it. My desire to window shop (I can window shop and not buy anything) seemed pointless due to the amount of gas it would use.
So, all in all, I am feeling a bit irritable because of the money situation. I could get a 2nd job (which looks really, really difficult right now in my area), but am worried about the who overworked and tired aspect as I need to really focus more on my health----my body doesn't recharge as much as it used to when I was younger and worked 2 jobs. And yet part of me wants to be able to rest on the weekend.
Anyone else find themselves irritable when their money is tight?
And despite my irritability, I am soooo aware of how blessed I am, and how I just need to hunker down and stick to doing the right thing. I have it good, and eating beans and rice for a week is a luxury for a lot of people, and I shouldn't complain.
About the same pay as working as a walmart greeter lol.
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