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[JanH]

I don't have anything to add to the good suggestions. But I do want to congratulate you on sticking with finding help for your disorder. I have a milder form of bipolar and a couple of other things and I spent money in spurts. Now, I am in debt and working on it. I am blessed in that my disorders are milder and that I've got a good team behind me now. And I found this site to help me get back on track with my finances. I know you feel bad about it all, but you're on the right track. Don't beat yourself up about it. Keep working on it slowly. And come here for questions and support. This is an awesome bunch of people who care. My favorite quote in the whole world is: Keep going, even the snail made it to the ark!

[LuckyRobin]

Since you are an engineer, if you can at all, try to get yourself hired on at one of the oil fields on the North Slope of Alaska, somewhere like Kuparuk or Prudhoe Bay. They are starting a big gear up and many of the companies are starting to hire. Wages up there are well above the norm, benefits are good, and you live on site in the barracks for free, and they feed you for free. If you can get hired on there, there is no need to have a second household and you will be able to get your focus onto supporting one home. Plus schedules are usually of the 2 on 2 off, 3 on 3 off, or 4 on 2 off variety, so you would be able to go home and spend that time with your family.