[Gruntina]

Thanks Broken Arrow.... I sort of knew that was going to be the answer but somehow I don’t feel so alone when conveying thoughts in my head. This question I have to admit is more emotional than physical.

I guess now for me it’s more of a matter which of the two is my desire. I really do not know yet at this time since I have been paying these debts for a while now and I am getting closer to the end. It seems that the closer to the end of paying off debts, the harder it gets. Both of these debts are associated with an extremely bad memory and I just can't wait to be done with it so I can "mentally" move on and part from my old life. I feel to be physically done with paying finances on these two I will be financially free but also feel like I can fully be in my new good life without knowing subconsciously I am still paying off the consequences of a very bad life event.