[boefixepa]

I'm a little biased on this because I have seen so many people take advantage of help systems. Now, I'm not saying you are doing that in any way, and yes there are those that honestly need it, but do you have the goal to be self-suffient? Try it for a few months. Maybe powdered Milk, and egg subsitutes (I saw a message somewhere on the board about what they use instead of fresh eggs), and other cost savings methods on this board. Long and short of it is that hpoefully sooner than later you are going to have to do this yourself. There are going to be some things that are harder than others, but the sooner you can do it the better off you will be. You just have to weigh the odds yourself and decide what is more important to you.