I'm sorry to learn your expectations have been dashed. It sounds trite but time does help lessen the pain. I hope your vendors will give back your deposits since they have not delivered any service and have significant time to take other bookings.
Some people pour themselves into their career and accomplish wonderful things to cope with other disappointments. Take your time, don't make any massive changes, let yourself grieve the loss of that relationship. The best is yet to come
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